Love

Feeling sick, nothing to do.. feel like writing.. lying on the bed make me feel even more sick..

Sometimes I feel that one's career path is just like one's love life.
You remember how u feel when you feel when u got your first job, full of hope and anticipation. it just like how you know love, full of hope and always feeling so vibrant.
And every cute boy that walk past u thought to yourself, is he the one? You watched every cheesy taiwan drama(example: Meteor Rain, MVP valentine during my time) and everytime you feel like crying together with them when their love life turn otherwise. On the happy times in the drama, you find it so sweet and you begain to imagine yourself as the main lead while awaiting your prince charming to appear and sweep your feet away.You were so positive naive.

As time passed and you gotten into your first few relationship, you started to see that reality ain't anything like fairy tales, love stories ain't as dramatic as serials, and flaws ain't cute at all.
Worst of all, some were seriously hurt when their love got betrayed.

When you grew a little older, clearer picture started to form and you realised, what happen in fairy tales, remain in fairy tales. (you start to ask yourself, why dont glass heel turn into something else when the clock strike 12 where else the carriage had already turn into the pumpkin and the horses had become mice-so unrealistic!). 童话故事都是骗人的!

You needed a soul-mate, not unrealistic drama main lead. You draw out a few main criterias which mattered more to you, and started to look out for decent guys. Example a boy-next-door, you realised that, even the boy-next-door is weird. It's not fun and and you go for bad boys, Nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai. Then u also realise tat you are not up to game with them. you got all freaked out & thought to yourself is it that you were weird.

You striked out more & more criterias, yet none seems to match. Those you like, either nv called back or they don't like you. Those that called back, you know it's just 'cause the rest that they called didn't pick up.

Then you thought, should I just downgrade and pick anyone instead??

After years and years and all your friends are in long term relationships, you never had anyone by your side. Your self-esteem hitted rock bottom, and you started to plan for alternatives, like working harder to get a condo cause u can never get a HDB being single and only at age of 35!